The Intervention

No I am not talking about when Govie, BigHead Boy, George and Kayo jack me up on Saturday....this time the interrogation came from my parents!

I came out of my room last night sometime around midnight to go to the bathroom and my parents asked me to sit down so they could "speak to me". The convo went something like this.

(me sits while heaving huge dramatic sigh because I REALLY needed to use the bathroom)

Daddy: Melissa what did you have for dinner tonight?
Me: Rice and some vegetables.
Daddy: So you didn't have any of the lamb? That lovely nice lamb that your mother prepared?
Me: I just didn't want any.
Mummy: So you're done eating meat? You on a diet?
Me: No Mother. I just dont feel like eating meat anymore.
Mummy: Well alright but if you're not gonna eat meat you have to start buying fruit and eating more veggies."
Daddy: You. That's a good idea. I feel I could eat some more fruits in truth. Melissa bring home some fruits. We can share.
Mummy: Barker they are not for you. If the girl ain eating meat she gotta eat something. This way you get more meat. Leff de girl and she fruits!
Me: Can I go now? (bewildered)
Mummy: Yeah go long and sleep. We will hear you in the morning
Daddy: But wait tho. You stop eating meat jusso? Wuh happen you turning rasta????


I'll just end it there since that was about the time I got up rolled my eyes and went to bed.

But the non meat eating thing isn't go so bad really. It's been what? nearly two weeks? So it isn't impossible. But thanks to George I already have images of a hearty meat filled Christmas dinner in my head. I will not succumb to the desires of my heart on that day. It's just a matter of getting Mummy to add in fish to the menu which I am sure she will have no problem with!

Neways off to another day of work. Oh joy!


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Later on in the day and I am wondering just what the hell is wrong with me. You know when you tell yourself don't get too attached cus it's never gonna turn into something? You know your place and you know where you stand and you know what you have to do. Your role is very apparent...it's been made VERY clearly what your purpose here is. And yet because of this stupid thing called emotions ...feelings what have you...you find yourself totally ignoring those guidelines you set out for yourself...or rather were set out for you :S. And as much as I try to be the "cool friend" I can't really tell myself that I don't have feelings for this person...and even though I know...I know deep within my soul that it is a disaster waiting to happen...I can't shut the damn faucet off!

And you know what makes it times worse? When you're the only person stressing about it. The other person is going along quite happily living their life and you're the one stressing....and it's not like you asked them to come into your life and cause you to become concerned...things were fine as they were before!

It's just a tad bit hurtful that you know they have such an effect on you ...but it doesn't work the other way around :S

Life's funny like that lol.